This particular scene has been engraved in me since I can remember. This is the first movie I remember watching. #Batman
Where do I begin? Its been almost 11 mos. since I made the big move to NYC. That decision alone was the BEST thing I could have ever done.—- Pre-NYC, I was a privileged kid who had everything and didn’t quite have a story that everyone would want to read. How can someone relate to a person who hasn’t LIVED? That is what I was missing. A story. I was big headed with a mind filled with delusion. Yes, I was a college graduate, but life is something that undergraduate studies can’t prepare you for. Living is the only way to learn. Mistakes and all. I want to make mistakes. The more mistakes you make adds to the ways you know not to do something. That’s how you WIN.
The most distinct epiphany I’ve had since being here is the appreciation for imperfection. My outlook on life has changed for the better and I want to hear stories of similar struggles. I can no longer bare my hearing to stories of people who haven’t had to work a day in there lives. As I get older it’s imperative that I surround myself with people that have similar perceptions. I come from the South where people want to be uppity and want others to feel inferior just by their materialistic belongings and quite frankly they aren’t even that great. Where people think Hermes bracelets are the shit when I’m thinking a timeshare in the Caribbean is the shit. Am I Jealous? No. I’m training myself out of jealousy because in all actuality I don’t know what that person or their parents have done to get where they are. With that being said I do think that comfortability are dangerous waters to tread if you have dreams. Arguably, people who come from “money” lack certain surviving characteristics and miss the difference between being good and GREAT.
But, now. Almost a year down the line. I know who I am. Early 20s are always so difficult because you change so much more than any other age. I’m more grounded, responsible, empathetic, stronger, and appreciative. I thank god for making me understand hard work and what it means to not be so polished. That way I can appreciate the good times much more because I know the hard times, personally. I’m focused on my career and being a better person. I’m a living testament of giving up everything including your mind state and pride to get something so much more rewarding. If you want it you will get it.
So a synopsis of my life. I’m better, happy, excited, and still hungry for more opportunity. Done interning. Starting a new job. Moving out and upward!, still W’ing ;), and can’t wait to spread love and positivity. Oh yea, and visiting home by end of summer!
Until next time.
Love,
El xoxo
